It was nineteen and a half, is a sophomore of secondary schools. He is the first guy to play with nominal house to learn. He was alone in town. It only concerns the learning and studying for exams to enlist. Dreams of becoming college students always burning in his heart.
Britain than it is four years old, he or come and sit down to talk to him in the evening. It was not too happy. Study plan and its exam review he was broke. Sometimes inconvenient. One time he told me a week just to house it once. Because it is busy learning. He looked deep into his eyes and said: I know ... but I miss you! ... It's too naive to understand all the emotions in her eyes. It glimpse shudder and injured him. It offered him up early. Transient smiled, blushed and he agreed.
But that day he does stay quite late leaf encroachment. Sometimes it is also worried. In it alone. Mall that live crowded daytime, glaring luop vehicles. At night, the desert wilderness pointed hoe. It's not much fun. But he had to go to work. The only thing left to go find out and get married. Other UK it too. It also knows how burning ambition in his heart. Build family in their twenties is not unrealistic. It apathetic when it comes to the future. He was very excited. He saw sadness and frustration on his lap. It enthusiastically talk. He then tears of joy ...
Surprise for several days did not see his shadow. It's starting to miss. These days it got too full affection he has for it. And it forgets that it has really missed him. A week after he appeared in front of his house. Ministry can not form more pathetic. No one can say anything you run to catch him if he was late down. It assisted fellow there helped him into the seat. He looked awful. Foul smell of blood in the wound rises concentration levels. He looked at it smiling florid, while it extremely jittery before my leg was swelling and redness at the site amniotic open wounds because he walked a long ways towards it. He exclaimed: gosh! Anh Ha! ... I Ha! ... He was doing this so? He did not answer it, his smile brighter. He saw his eyes twinkle, happy as it has been to the top of mountain climbing. He pulled her head to his chest and ecstasy enjoy the taste of happiness. Despite it asked him countless questions: You are how? How long have you been? He has not hurt ... Much later he whispered in his ear: Do not copy the day before at the home of his brother had an accident. Confined to lose a few days. Until today he first came out here to be with you! He accompanied him interjected you say: I told you not to walk out here before that. Just what went parried away like that. Legs now like this, dark lake that groaned sports ... I interrupted him and said his friend: But he is not out here, how Hanh also worry! Be, he grasped at his chest and sobbed. It wants to speak with him, it had missed him so much and do not know why he is not to place it too. It also does not know his place to come looking. It also promised myself after not making him sad anymore! But it does not speak, he just sobbed for his injuries too. Because it was thought ill of him, he thought he had left it and it was trying to forget me ... I hand it out and loosen up painful moan softly. It turns out that in his chest and had a large bruise. Do not know why? It cried, did you hurt so much room, then hu hu cry. In passionate tears, he saw him laughing very happy. He was happy to find it also very interested and injured him. He saw it, though poor and stupid but also very affectionate and compassionate. I just ask it head on his chest for a moment to help remember. His car was taken into police custody, he must walk because he is busy you do not take him away from her. It wants to hold him back but is too inconvenient because it just left alone. Just then, one of his other friends drove to pick two people before going to work night shifts.
He hurried away without leaving home address up to it visit. It reminded him, agonized expect him to. It worried. But so be it. After that he managed to place it. But his eyes were very different. There is something distant, something embarrassing and something regretful. He asked clearly up English teacher name on its class and relieved. Much later it knows, the English teacher up its new love and are eager to pursue him. Although he likes it, but she was another wealthy, stable job, speaks softly and ready to dive into the fire for him. They join with a common interest group activities. Came with her, he will marry immediately without having to wait. She is also looking for ways to force him to marry for it. Do not like it, poor, sick nhach, impatient and cold again. She just moved to teach it right day after class he asked. It should not say do not know anything with him.
He said the house it over, the stay is short. He also brought the longer you make it to chatting unhappy. It just wants to be with him to talk in private. And it proved uncomfortable with his friends. His friends say it straight in the face: He's still got a bunch more, she is a teacher of it and she was great. If he has feelings for him, then hurry up. Because sooner or later, he'll love her only. It's sad, wide eyes looked into his eyes to seek confirmation from his emotional certainty. But it shows his attitude a bit cold, weak and eyes royal charter. But it still shows I love it, just as weak and bewildered. It also found confusion and anxiety as people are on high clouds suddenly crashed to the ground. He calmly asked him: What is Sex? He opened his eyes for tears do not flow out. He said: Why you all, why did you lie to her name up your English teacher? Tomorrow I'll know ... Then he and his friends put on. It is a surprise, did not understand what was happening.
Of course, the next from that, every hour english teacher it is always very special care. She made every effort to make it hurt less hypocritical guise. She said it was her straight with his pursuing its Ha. And certainly Mr. Ha will soon belong to her. But she would like it made him Ha for her. Since it was young, there are many opportunities. As for her, she just wanted to have him Ha only. She did not forget to threaten it: If not abandon him Ha, she will make it expelled. Will make life it never was head poking up. Conversely, if it quit Ha. She will help it when it competition in generation at the university after graduating from secondary school. Thanks temple, resentment pay. She said that would make!
Oh god! Ears ringing it up, chest it wanted to burst into many small pieces. It really is very tired. Every day it was still quiet and intense struggle with precancerous intestinal disease that is contracted to wresting life from the dead hand. Past year it had been his teacher threatened to make it slip high school for not doing the will of his master. The feeling shattered, pain and shame to the end when it was one of very few students graduating that year slipping now rethink its heart still sharp pains. It looked solid dragon peers laughing the entrance exam which tears in his eyes, it becomes catastrophic and serious depression. Trying new it regained much sense to review the test again. Then it had listened relative lazy hackers in this school and prep school again. If now it was the school expelled for any reason. Life it would be terrible. It will not stand up anymore. The teacher knew very well that. And looking at it with the eyes with a hint of triumph ridicule. As for the study at the university is its plan from entering the school. She was very intelligent choices Hairs that dream to lure it.
He clenched his hands in hate and helplessness. It shed tears. It can not surrender. It believes in Ha won his affection for it. But it agrees to pretend she did not release other more malicious attacks with it. Anyway its mission this time is to survive and get ahead in life. But he Ha increasingly distant from it. He also lent it guitar and said to prefer arts or somewhat busy that it is not over. Once it happened to find him taking his guitar to sing with male teachers. It's really painful. The heart wants to burst. Apparently it took him. Why did you lie to it. It upset him and sad. She also had it not be for him to play more house, otherwise she would turn her life or more dramatically. Because it is the peasant population it? And she is the residential population of the town? She had everything, but it had nothing beyond the advantage of his feelings. But he also has plenty to hide it. He is gradually separated from it.
He did not come home anymore, do not know how many today already! It also can not concentrate in school. It climbed to the ceiling, watching the stars at night. Enjoy the neighborhood on a quiet night with the green eyes teak trees. The slack sicken flower as beautiful lanterns. His eyes finally watches one direction, where he will appear if to house it. He just waited, not knowing for. It is crying, not knowing cry. It just felt so sad without knowing expression is revealed to the outside makes you in class today some re im also no one told him a sentence.
Then one day he came true, he knocked on the door of his house. It was sitting on the roof looking down. See posture as he hastily met and then only look away as it heartbreaking. How many today then not met. He pounded on the door again, it would speak! He'd call my name ... It'd told him how very much for today it was inhibited very much for her teacher. She's over it every way, and he hated to admit it. Tear it flowed, it shows he has eyes and murmured through the windows do not know where to go when it splashed books thrown on the table. He suddenly looking up to say: rain ah? He reached his inspiration ... probably not see it, because it is in shadow. Air curtain with night sky. The tears of it speaks it out what to say. His face suddenly froze, bloody sad. He looked almost like the first day meet it, not fragile, thin and pale pale, pale light like those days. It is set to open for his run. It wants to struggle with him. But there, she was driving to work. She told him to go! No need to say more. It has also behaved then what? ... It turned out they had decided. It seems to me, she - a poisonous snake is also erect a unique play and forcing him towards if you do not love her, she will harm it. And the more he loved it, the more she's being led by the nose and make it hurt. Or to the lowly status. It swallowed tears barely look love flowering, fruiting was blatant and they ignoble robbed. It cry! It's sad lot.
Later that day, it will not wait forever to see him again. His friends openly courting it. But it refused sharply. It claims Aaron Green, this life it is only love alone Mr. Ha was a worker, if nothing with him Ha it will never be one like him Ha before. But it is sad, it is also very precious his friends Ha. But love is not! Maybe it was a trap set up by the teacher to let him hate it because it dared Ha love my boyfriend alone. It's sad, to be the teacher in class to increase pressure and urine hoax by the game's very uncomfortable. Although it had played the ball to the species, often, to tell the truth, he Ha is a girl likes another is not it. But it is very tired and wanted to end it all. Maybe because this shock he thought back, he felt he could not live without it. He would go inside it. It really want to fight to win his love. And it places him, he was not home. Maybe I'm going out with her. It rewrote some lines. Said that it wanted to reclaim the instrument to stop expecting him to play again. Italy it was it was expecting him to play, and it tired his memory. He wrote that, if the teacher has read that there is no excuse to harm it.
In fact, he kept his guitar because when he plucked her. He would have good reason to see him back. Because it was true love in my heart. But she and his friends did not let him do that. They got up and said she bribed and do something inhuman for her benefit. They were combined and destroy his relationship and it.
You pay him to help his pianos it and told him that he would not return to Hanoi where is it. Because there are so rich she is teacher of a secondary school in the town. She had graduated from college. While he only completed grade 12 Ha, and is a worker. Get her the honor and happiness of all them home with him. Moreover, he Ha too ham her money! But it does not believe. It does not believe he Ha may be rid of it like that. It does not believe he was taking money Ha means.
Then one day it is half expected it, when he saw him laughing Ha modest or her on the street. It remained to greet him and maybe three people talking to make a quarrel. But he suddenly turn into a dead end in sight when it. He waited a moment, also because too surprised not believe my eyes. I thought it went away, turned the car off, the silky sweat absorbed. Apparently, that day their wedding photos. It's sad endless.
His wedding day, she had sent invitations to ban its class worker. It was sad. See some friends he drove it through the door, the buzzing and then laughed loudly that it hurt too. It is true that it does not know their best quality in love already. It cried.
In class, some you already know his face Ha. Long time no see it again mentioned his name in the class. Everyone badgering. Reluctantly he said he was dead! The class was startled panic. They gathered around him to ask: How did die? Why not say to everybody Hanh to visit Hanh first boyfriend. They hugs him pat! It burst into tears! Tears flowed as water streams. How many today it is seen very heavy heart as the coffin was closed. It did not cry are among friends is gurgles other conversation. It is because people do not say it was deeply hurt that the teacher's class is being flattered, flattered. It said in tears: he was the truck of death! And from then please do not ask about him again! Naturally people agree! And it is comfortable to cry in love, sharing and helping people. It feel better! It called him in sobs without feeling ashamed actually being betrayed.
The bottom layer, have a few pairs of eyes looking at it with empathy. They went to attend her wedding. They were very surprised because her fiance is the boyfriend of it. They pitied it.
But things did gradually pass, it just wants to die. Because the heart is very weak. He wrote a lot of attention is on the computer keyboard is not connected to the computer to alleviate the pain and nostalgia him. He said it took him truth. He knew when he was the husband of a teacher of it, it also means never become boyfriend anymore. It's really sad. At such times, it's on the internet or chat, chit divert confide everything it thinks it wants anonymously. It must forget me.
He suddenly realized he had not seen for several months before menstruation. It bewildered him kiss it recalled in the road. I wonder if you can do it makes it a pregnancy or not? It's unbelievably bored clam that first kiss and also his last kiss for it. Now he is married already! It worried, and also decided masked go buy a home pregnancy test. The results have nothing. But suddenly it stand yourself and hope it do? Maybe it's no reason to rob him again? It felt so crazy! Just a kiss and a little light on the gender impact at the hip, then how could get pregnant! Maybe in all this time it was tense only. Thinking back on that day, so it was wearing pajamas at home to go out with him? It is true that every place saying stupid Nazi. It laughs tire of all the books get. Tomorrow test piece.
On leaving school he learned, the teacher it has also had a long divorce. Just so long. it is no longer interested in him.
Author: Pham Thi Hoi
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