Monday, September 7, 2015

My mistake in life

      I capital as a confident, wealthy bravery, always optimistic, cheerful and full of life lived. But then I became a girl's self-esteem, weak and has a lot of negative thoughts in life ever since I do not know. Perhaps measure environmental part of my life is not good. But the main reason is myself, all I was at that place. And now, I wish time could rewind. And I can not fall into the tragic sequence happened to me. But that is impossible. Therefore, from today, I started to gradually build myself healthy, getting better. To me will reap success and happiness in life. But it's late, but still keep up.

        My mistake began when out of pity that I fell into the arms of an evil villain, dastardly. And because a bad choice I had become my girlfriend who does not really love. But he just clung to me for money, houses and land. But he did twist thoughts, my feelings towards his favor. So my thoughts of love is dedication, sacrifice everything we have. Having to endure and accept everything that belongs to someone you love. And to make things as desire and interests of the person. Where Do I love her? And my life miserable start, I gradually lost all joy in life started from that day. Finally, he had to steal my land to marry a different woman. That very human laugh. The land is that of my whole family. The owner's name on the piece of land that is still my mother. And I'm just his girlfriend.
       However, since then I have been several times stumbled into relationships that I do not really like. Of course, all those that have come to me for money. They took advantage, deprive and defraud the money which my meager. When I do not have the money anymore, they frankly discarded me and to other women. They took advantage of the kindness, love and all my capacity for their purpose. So, I've been hurt a lot, both physically, refined into, money, soul and honor ... Perhaps, those who did not see me as a person. They have considered me as a stupid pig.
        But all this is probably at me. Why I have to accept them as the main from deep within the human body did not correspond to them. So, I like animals in a circus, they are trained and controlled. I do not live with their human nature. I have always lived with the cool thing, but society as well. So I like an actor in love and life between the lines. When I finished filming there, I will be removed from the theatrical life of someone. Why I did not heal all their wounds before coming with a new love. Even I still have a mistaken idea is to use new people to forget the old man. So I brought a wounded soul with new people. And newcomers have not only helped me to heal the wounds, they still make me hurt, and I lost many times. However, from the heart I have not forgotten the old man. Therefore, I also made them vulnerable lot. ...
      So up, though 32 years old, but I never had a love affair with true meaning of love. All indications are that the fragments of emotion, and the metamorphosis of the soul. Price I've always lived as my own man. The price I was completely healed the hurt inside his soul, before coming to what was thought to be "the most advanced culture", I had no self-hurt myself again, and do others hurt. Then the pain I grow up error error hurt. The damage on top of damage. Therefore, the more I fell into a state of confusion, chaos and distraction. After string on me to quit everything and live with their own. I got out, I had to change it myself, the life in me changed. I'm still me as before, and I'll meet, and fall into the arms of a similar old people only. There is nothing that can be sustainable, long term when there is construction on the true nature of who I am at all. Accept yourself, if you do not accept, love yourself, then who will be able to love and cherish you? Be self-help yourself, before seeking the help of others.
                                                                                          Author: Pham Thi Hoi

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